Telling Tales with a Tall Father, and Other Scottish Adventures.

A pause in my regaling Spring Break tales, for real-time updates: my Dad is here, in Scotland, with me. This may have been swept under the finish line of my every blog, but it’s certainly not been swept under the rug in my in-person life. Would have to be a large rug. My father clears six foot five. That’s more than two meters, in the UK.

It’s been such a delight to take him around my town; we’ve had Mum’s famous bangers and mash, scaled the Scott Monument, touted about the castle, and even made our way to the summit of Arthur’s Seat today. Somehow, having a two-metres-tall chunk of the home in my heart in the home of my life now bridges the distance.

Bagpipes and Walter Scott. Doesn't get more quintessentially Scottish than that!

Bagpipes and Walter Scott. Doesn’t get more quintessentially Scottish than that!

Tall man for a tall mountains backdrop.

Tall man for a tall mountains backdrop.

Getting gusted off the peak of Arthur's Seat, brb.

Getting gusted off the peak of Arthur’s Seat, brb.

I’ve grown up wearing a sweatshirt three sizes too big (’twas made for a man three times my size) emblazoned with the APIM study abroad logo from 1989. Wearing the legacy of my father’s Grand European Tour, where he traveled with nothing more than a backpack and a man, whose name as far as i can tell, was My-Buddy-Mark. The summer he all but snuck into Iron-Curtain-covered Poland and took so many tours of the brewery in Copenhagen that, by the end of the semester, the guides made him give the tour. There was as much free beer as you wanted while walking between the pipes, so it’s no wonder he was a Friday night regular.

These tales have been the fabric of how i imagine my father. I know how i see him, but i think there is always some mystery clothing our parent’s lives before us, their children. A time when he really did understand the woes of pre-pubescent acne and amour, a time when he went to raucous college parties and took overnight trains through central Europe. Since the days of my own wars with astringents and seventh-grade-love-interests i’ve dreamed of traveling the way my Daddy did. Enduring the makings of my own outrageous hostels stories, learning how to live in Europe a world away from the other hemisphere i’ve known. It was his spark that made me first go to Uganda at the age of fourteen, his encouragement that enabled me to return for a summer internship.

This semester has been a kind of culmination in imagining my father. Imagining the man who ate tortellinis in the Alps and went to Aushcwitz with a heavy heart. Learning to cook has been its own microscopic introduction to that gaping vortex of adulthood. Imagining what my Daddy must have looked like doing the same thing enables me to understand him in the present tense more.

But it’s the adventures i’ve always loved best, be they in my mind or in the moving air around us.

So today we take off for the Great Scottish Adventure, destination: every feckin’ where from here to the Highlands. I can’t wait to fall in love with more of this country, and i can’t wait to get to know my present-tense Daddy a little deeper by making our own raucous stories together.

Told you he was tall.

Told you he was tall.

current jam: ’500 miles’ the proclaimers.

The Fairytale of Chefchouen.

Having awoken to mist-draped Rif mountains and the spices-and-sweet taste of Moroccan tea, i had pretty high expectations for our first full day in Morocco.

The view from the balcony of the Hotel!

The view from the balcony of the Hotel!

A stop on the bus ride to Chefchouen.

A stop on the bus ride to Chefchouen.

My expectations were met.

Chefchouen, the “blue city,” was like something painted in a fairytale: tumbled-up-together blue houses and windy closes running between them, all draped in varying shades of cobalt and azure. The town itself was situated high on a mountain, running thick with waterfalls and the sloping sounds of running rivers. Most magical of all, though: innumerable, friendly, pretty little cats. (My priorities were clearly in order!)

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We began the day with a walking tour around the city. I was too swept up in the sea of sapphire engulfing us to keep up with the guide, so the most of what i learned was that the color was meant to keep away the flies and that the mountains around us were treacherous but exhilarating to climb. The air was crisp, like the paler blues underneath roofs and washed away by rains over the seasons. But still the whole place – in the grandest of clichés – smelled rich with spice like indigo or ultramarine.

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Cats! Everywhere, cats!

Cats! Everywhere, cats!

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Wooing felines.

Wooing felines.

Wooing more felines.

Wooing more felines.

I drank in the wonder of iron-wrought window frames in cerulean and smiled shyly at the people who lived behind them. After a while, the group of some 100 tourists (mostly obnoxious Americans) were making me feel like we had invaded someone’s private space. In a very real way, we had.

So i was grateful that, after an incredible lunch on the roof of the Casa Aladdin, Joan, Abby, and i could break away from the crowd and saunter along the streets. Every sign we saw was doubled in Arabic and Spanish, and every shopkeeper we met shifted with ease between English and French. They also often started in Spanish, murmuring to coworkers in Arabic. I felt my lack of interest in language-learning burn a little, shamed.

Seriously, an amazing lunch!

Seriously, an amazing lunch!

Besides acquiring cat-friends, i collected an incredible leather backpack and Chefchouen key-holder to hang by my door. I wanted the latter for the contours of the lock and reminder that such a place did exist outside of storybooks. (And i just have to say, i haven’t lost my bargaining abilities one ounce since Uganda. Not one ounce!)

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Where we had our lunch! Stunning views.

Our rooftop lunch had afforded us tremendous views of the town, but even seeing the spread of it underneath and around us was just not enough to capture how wondrous it all was. Like the white Spanish pueblas we had seen on our train ride through Andalucía, the houses possessed this undeniably romantic quality that stood at sharp contrast with the unfriendly and commanding peaks of the mountains around us. Such color, such vivacity.

The flatmates and i stopped for a long conversation over (more) Moroccan tea that afternoon. Watching life go by around us and navigating purring cats underfoot assured me that Chefchouen was seriously a kind of paradise on earth. And maybe i only think that because my walks took me outside the windows – seeing only the blues from the outside, and not the in. But isn’t that why we take vacation, when we are able to?

My beverage obsession.

My beverage obsession.

All too soon we were piling back on the bus, swapping bargaining stories and drinking in the vistas outside our windows bound for Tétouan. It had been a trek through a tremendous tale, but i guess we always have to leave before the happily-ever-after gets colored by the reality descending from the rafters.

And for that day, i was content to let it be so.

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current jam: ”crooked arrows” rocky votolato.

best thing: my daddy is here!

Seasick on the Strait of Gibraltar.

Anchovies aside, our two-and-a-half days in Spain had been on-the-whole lovely. But we weren’t in Spain as our primary destination: Sevilla was a port of departure for a trip to Northern Morocco.

The Strait of Gibraltar from our bus ride through the mountains!

The Strait of Gibraltar from our bus ride through the mountains!

I was beside myself. Having traveled rather extensively in East and West Africa, i was eager to dig my heels into some Northern Africa territory. Obviously, this was to be a light flavoring of even what all of Morocco has to share and show, but i was hankering for my camel ride and stroll through the fairytale blue streets of Chefchouen.

I was not hankering for usurping my lunch over the bow of our ferry. Even without anchovies, that was not a sight anyone wanted to see.

My motion sickness is embarrassingly debilitating. I can’t sick in the backseat of a car bound for the grocery store without turning green, much less handle choppy waves and gusting winds over the Mediterranean sea. But the worst part wasn’t trying to suck down salt air between waves. It was trying to keep my too-tiny lungs from wheezing in too much secondhand cigarette smoke.

It’s no false stereotype: at least a dozen people stood on the deck puffing on a pack and a half the whole ride over. I’ve been struggling in Europe with the smoking levels everywhere i go, but this was the absolute worst. No consideration for anyone else, the clusters of people blew their excess toxins right into my already-ill face. Nevermind my obnoxiously red inhaler clutched in my greening fingers. Had i not been feeling like my stomach had been replaced with a heavy-load washing machine, i might have assumed soapbox mode and asked for a little awareness of our little-lung neighbors.

After an hour that lasted an asthma-ridden lifetime, we chugged into the Tangiers harbor. The feral cats who inhabited the luggage terminal were my fast friends, and a few mews later i was feeling like a new woman. It’s the simple pleasures, right?

First cat sighting in Morocco!

First cat sighting in Morocco!

Fast friends.

Fast friends.

Another (blessedly smoke-free) bus ride later, we were in our swanky Tétouan hotel where plates of fresher vegetables than i’d seen in months were on the table before us. Morocco was looking seriously good, if for the tomatoes and cucumbers alone.

And my hotel bed was looking even better. So thankful for fresh air and greens not of the seasick-variety, i was for bed.

current jam: ‘holy ground’ taylor swift.

best thing: my dad comes tomorrow!

Sevilla & Málaga: Spring Break Part 1!

(i’m back in edinburgh now, jetlagged and tired but happy to be back. at last, my blogs on spain and morocco are being published!)

I was struck first by the heat. When i can’t so much as leave your desk without unraveling a blanket and donning another sweater, walking outside without so much as a sweater on made me feel utterly nude. And there were palm trees! Actual greenery, not just peeps of emerald grass between halfhearted plops of snow!

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flying in over the andalucían mountains!

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Spain was looking to be an excellent choice for Spring Break.

We cleared customs in Málaga without so much as a who-are-you, acting like stereotypical Americans giggling over our stamps and mispronouncing every Spanish word in sight. We were giddy with the heat. There was a train and cab ride to the hostel, where our driver got lost in the network of Málaga tiled streets. He pointed down an alley that better resembled a linoleum-floored kitchen than a road, and we found at last our place for the night. There were drinks and tapas and superb sheep’s cheese. Really superb.

The next day was spent in jeans and tanktops – a delightful breath of fashion-themed fresh air – walking around the pier and beach. I dipped rainboot’ed toes into the Mediterranean, and before long we were on a train to Sevilla.

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Actual TILED streets. Who knew?

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And though i’d not only worn a tanktop, seen the Mediterranean, and actually tasted humidity, this was the best part of the day. Our route wound itself through the Andalucían mountains, painted in white pueblas and craggy rock-face mountains underneath the bluest stretch of skies. Fields of grapes textured the landscape. It was breathtaking.

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Once in Sevilla, where the streets no longer required mopping, we found a haunt to dine. Spain has a meal consumption time unlike anywhere else i’ve been – my guidebook (trusty Lonely Planet, as ever. I’m still waiting for my sponsorship) even bore an entire chapter devoted to the subject. You snack, at various hours, throughout the day until a MASSIVE lunch come 2 PM-ish. Then there’s dinner, around 9 PM, with more snacking.

Lucky for travelers catching mid-morning trains, it was prime lunch time in Sevilla.

Unlucky for non-Spanish speakers, we hadn’t a clue what the menu offered. So we played my favorite travel food game: ask the waiter in sign language, point at random on the menu, and hope for the best.

I’ve had delectable surprises in the past, especially at Indian restaurants. You can’t really go wrong there.

Apparently in Spain, though, you can. A steaming plate of fried anchovies on a platter of boiled carrots arrived. We looked at each other, mildly horrified. Our first course of paella (deliciously seasoned rice with a plethora of seafood) had just gone so well.

Appetizing.

Appetizing.

Real-time reactions.

Real-time reactions.

A trashcan stuffed with suspiciously fishy napkins later, we left a hearty European tip and walked out. For future reference: átun does not mean tuna.

My favorite part of Sevilla, needless to say, was not the cuisine.

My favorite part of Sevilla was, in a move totally outside of my character, the enormous cathedral-mosque in the heart of El Centro. The builders conceived it with the hope that future generations would think them mad. I think they achieved their goal.

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It’s jaw-dropping. Even after my nine-church-tour of Edinburgh/London/Paris, the 7800 pipe organ and orange grove garden was humbling. The clash and harmony of Moorish architecture with Spanish gothic sung a beautiful melody of history and beauty. Besides, i’d love being in any garden in a comfortable sixty-seven degrees farenheight. The fact that the cathedral had a darling orange grove within it made it all the better!

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The warmth of Spain had yet to abate. In two days, we’d seen the beaches of Málaga and the cathedral of Sevilla, survived a meal of anchovies and made up for it with plenty of Spanish wine. It was a delightful start to what was promising to be a delightful week!

current jam: ‘sons & daughters’ the decemberists.

best thing: cotton leggings.

The Work of Grieving.

It’s been a teeth-rattling week.

I’m cozied up in J’s favorite armchair (he’s diplomatically taken the couch) staving off the onslaught of indoor air conditioning. It’s been a glorious day, the kind of North Carolina day when i see old friends and make new friends. The kind of day when the pollen coats your shoes from walking in sun-dappled grass, the kind of day when the flower blossoms make you forget the annoyance of yellow stains.

But my newsfeed is not so sated with Guglhupf chocolate as i am. My newsfeed is full of memes of the Sandy Hook children’s faces juxtaposed to the US Senate, it’s pictures memorializing Boston. It is full of arguments over the atrocities that occurred at the same time as the Boston Marathon in Afghanistan, where thirty people were killed at a wedding. Reasons for tremendously legitimate anger, and tremendously legitimate questions to ask.

And also on my newsfeed, buried within it all, is an obituary my aunt posted of my grandmother.

Grief is a season, my mother always says. Grief, she says, is exhausting, hard work. My grandfather has done little else but sleep, these past few days. The funeral has passed, out-of-town relatives returning to their homes afar. Their support has not abated, but the forefront of the crisis is gone. And so our refrigerator’s stock of casseroles dwindles and life starts to resume a trodden pace.

The grief, though, remains.

I remember nearly needing to leave the sanctuary when, at church, they read off the names of the children at Sandy Hook. How several pews ahead there squirmed an impish little one in a striped shirt, tugging on his mother’s sleeve for attention.

The human connections, the moments i remember with faces and feelings attached, remain. Listening to WUNC with my grandmother on a rare solo visit before i left for college. The sigh of relief at texts from friends in Boston assuring us they were okay. I don’t recall the macroscopic picture so much as i recall the details, details interwoven with emotion and simplicity.

And maybe that’s why we can’t carry grief forever the way we are grieving now. We can’t hold the enormity of tragedy. It is too great for human hands. There is a time to sleep all day. A time to let it crush and consume. And i don’t want to anticipate so much to say it’s time for us to move on – it’s not. For anything. This is the time to mourn, and we don’t always get to decided when we are done mourning. Grief, in some ways, gets to decide when it’s done with us.

But it is in doing the hard work of grief, as my mother says, that i have to choose to remember that little boy in his striped shirt pestering his mother. Being a squirmy kid, probably not understanding why such a pall was cast over his parents. I choose to eat shrimp and grits with my Papa, talking about Granny but also about summer plans. School. The elusive normality we all crave.

I have to choose to see this Carolina day for all it’s possibility, even when at the corners of every conversation lurks a greater sadness. The work of grieving does not need to stay, forever, the only work i see.

Home Again.

In a stunning turn of events, i was in an airport.

In not so spectacular events, i was headed home for what looked to be a funeral for my grandmother.

I should have known it was going to be nightmarish. I had to fly through not one, but two of my absolute least favorite airports in the whole world: Heathrow, and JFK. People crammed in yellow-sign-lit hallways and endless bus rides between terminals. I did not relish the journey, but i relished the 400 dollars cheaper ticket. Gritting my teeth and bearing it was in order.

It began with my intended carry-on being snapped shut with a white-and-black luggage tag. Too big for Europe, apparently. Backpack on my sunburnt shoulders and bleary eyes searching for my 7 am take-off gate, i bid adieu to Edinburgh and a good morning to London. A two hour layover became three. I practiced yoga in the terminal to remain calm; a lively American doctor now living in Nairobi joined me. She asked my least favorite question: why do you study religion? An interrogation later, i was grateful for her diplomacy but weary of people. I had, after all, woken up to a 3 AM alarm.

A blessing: the seats behind my ticketed place were empty. I claimed them, napping curled-cat syle in between movies about Paris on my personal TV. Snappy and sassy flight attendants left me snacks for when i woke. Being kind to service workers always pays off.

A hiccup: we landed in JFK with twenty minutes for me to clear customs and board my next flight. Lip-biting and nail-chewing windled those minutes down as we taxi’d to the terminal. Thick New York accents pulled me out of line, handing me two boarding passes in an offensively orange envelope with instructions to use the enclosed cab voucher to get to LaGuardia for my rescheduled flight.

Two boarding passes?

A man in a black kilt and rollings r’s of beloved Scotland inquired after his own ticket. We shared a surname and an RDU destination. Suddenly, this was my brother Callum and we, having flown from Edinburgh to Heathrow to JFK and (in theory) to RDU, were travel mates.

Another man with an Eastern North Carolina drawl and the same name as my own J joined us, and then we were three.

A blessing: we got to skip the queues in customs and our bags were pulled for us. The immigration officers loved my Obama-sticker-covered water bottle. My newfound Scottish brother was held back for his greencard, so travel-J and i hailed our cab and counted the ticking minutes to our departure. A fifteen minute cab ride, they said.

Twenty minutes later, we arrived with barely thirty minutes to get to the gate.

I’d prepped with two puffs from my inhaler, willing my tiny lungs to hold out.

A sprint and shoeless security check later, i was wheezingly wheeling my reclaimed suitcase to gate C4. I mentally ran through the yoga routine i would do at home to un-knot my ribcage and shoulders. I scanned the crowd, anticipating the line to be forming for the flight –

only to find this flight was delayed by another half an hour.

A deep breath. Another. And suddenly, i was calm. I had thirty minutes to breathe, so i ventured into the WC for a freshening up. Positive vibes, i thought. Child’s pose, and release. Ready to collapse in my real-J’s waiting hands and elbows and arms, cat-curling into a sleep that was not suspended between armrests. Staying in a centered place, a focused place. Just get home. Travel-J loaned me his phone, i made the calls.

Two hours and a sweet tea in hand later, i was home. Too late to say goodbye to my Granny, but in time to hold my own mother’s hand when the undertakers arrived. It’s been a long few days of casseroles left at the door and family in black. It’s good, if hard, to be home. There’s no place so beautiful as North Carolina when the dogwoods are in bloom. Especially when spring blossoms can so remind me of life in the midst of honoring a death.

And no journey, no matter how frustrating, discounts that.

A Camel Ride Along the Mediterranean!

We unfurled ourselves from the bus onto a fat stretch of parking lot. Puffs of red dust clouded around my feet with every step, the sun burning itself into my neck. I could hear, beneath the cliff, the thrum of waves on the beach. Cars were clustered around the periphery of the lot, but the main attraction sat squarely in the center: five rather unamused looking camels.
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It was like going to the state fair, but with the Mediterranean sea as a backdrop instead of fried snickers bars stalls.

Our Russel-Brand-lookalike guide hollered for a volunteer to be the first to ride a camel.

Two ladder steps later, volunteer #1 grasped the reins and giggled with delight. It had been years since i’d been on a horse and only seconds since i’d made a decidedly eff-it decision and jumped in the saddle. There was no watching how it was done, no hanging back to figure out the rhythm or canter or trot, just a blazing leap and brassy sense of confidence.

Until the camel started to stand. I wasn’t ready for the weird knees, the lurching forward as the camel rose to its full, much-taller-than-a-horse height. The humps that secured the fat wad of fabric connecting me to the animal seemed considerably less stable as the sea beneath the cliffs dropped another ten feet below me.

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I think the sound i emitted would best be called a shriek-guffaw. There was a lot of shouting and laughing and swearing. I clamped my legs and promptly forget every riding lesson from third-grade horse camp i ever knew. In the grand total of the three minutes i got to spend trotting around the parking lot, i think i spent at least two and three-quarters cracking up.

Camel grins!

Camel grins!

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The camel knelt to the ground and once again i was on a rollercoaster of backwards-and-forwards bingo. I felt like the Star Wars All-Terrain Armoured Transport crashing into a pile of ton-ton ridden snow, except in a parking lot surrounded by tourists. No stepping ladder was to be found near my camel, this round. Instead, the camel guide’s hands were suddenly clamped around my waist and unceremoniously plopping me on the ground in a guffaw-shrieking heap of HOLY MARY’s.

I gave the camel an affectionate pat. Our lunch-lurching three minutes were extraordinary. They were also ridiculous. Mostly, though, our three magical minutes together were my favorite three minutes in the whole of Morocco.

I’m back now, nursing a lobster colored sunburn and swaddling myself in wool sweaters. It was an incredible trip made especially incredible by two darling flatmates, Joan and Abby.  I have so many more tales to share – a wander through the blue city of Chefchouen, a grazing over gelato and tapas and wine in Spain, a ghastly menu error that resulted in fried anchovies, to name a few.

But i also have another plane to catch in some 16 hours or so, bound across the Atlantic for Carolina skies. My grandmother is not well, so i am going home for the week to be with my family. There will be more stories soon, though! Thanks for sticking around.

current jam: ‘ho hey’ the lumineers.

best thing: camels! by the mediterranean sea!

Saint Giles Cathedral, High Tea, and the National Museum: Checking in with the Edinburgh Bucket List.

When J and i weren’t cowering under umbrellas in London or making moon-eyes at each other in Paris, we were covering plenty of ground in Edinburgh.

It is, after all, the best city in the UK (in my humble, obviously biased opinion).

I took J to my favorite tourist-y spot in Edinburgh on the first day: the Edinburgh Castle. We visited my second-favorite spot – Saint Margaret’s Chapel – and J geeked out over the weaponry in the Great Hall (there was a lot of rolling eyes on my end).

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Saint Margaret’s Chapel, oldest building in Edinburgh.

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The castle at dusk!

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He really liked the cannons.

My first-favorite thing to do at the Castle, however, has nothing to do with what’s on the inside. The parking lot that stretches in front of the portcullis offers some of the most exquisite views of Edinburgh and the surrounding mountains – and you don’t have to pay the 14 pound ticket fee to get in!

View from the Castle Terrace!

View from the Castle Terrace!

As much as i love going to the Castle (and believe me, i do love it – have a membership card and all) there were also things on my Edinburgh Bucket List that i wanted to make sure we checked off together. With a little less eye-rolling, we made our way through the 5th item on my list: the National Museum of Scotland.

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Jaws in the Animal Room.

The National Museum was the kind of place my elementary school would go on field trips. (I spotted more than a few clusters of children in uniform in the various exhibits). It encompasses everything from Victorian-era taxidermies to artifacts from the Scottish Reformation. It’s free, so for that reason alone, it’s well worth a visit. The best part of the museum, though, isn’t so much the stuffed lions, but the rooftop terrace. A friend had taken me up one Sunday afternoon for yet another exquisite view of Edinburgh and i was eager to share the view with J.

Alas, the roof terrace was closed. We’d run into a lot of closings because of the season: the Eiffel Tower top floor, the façade of Saint Paul’s, compressed museum times. Easily one of the perks of off-season travel is the discounted ticket prices and smaller queues. But you pay for it with the weather and minor inconveniences.

Our disappointment with the terrace’s closure, however, was abated by the beauty of the 6th item on my list: Saint Giles Cathedral. Situated along the Royal Mile with a tremendously distinctive spire, Saint Giles is a landmark i pass almost every single day. I knew it was meant to be gorgeous inside, but i’d saved the trip for when J visited.

St. Giles by night.

St. Giles by night.

I’m very, very glad i did. Calling the sanctuary lovely is a gross understatement, but anything else sounds forced. Sharing in the splendor with J was wonderful – he’s the only person i know who loves looking at old churches as much as me.

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Thistle Chapel

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On J’s last day in Edinburgh after moon-pie-eyes days spent in Paris and London, we went for High Tea at the Carlton. High Tea is just so quintessentially British, and more to the point High Tea is such a delicious occasion to dress up for a man as in love with his sport coat as J is. I got tick number 24 of of my list and J got to wear a tie (he’d packed it just for the occasion. There was more eye-rolling from my end).

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In posh splendor the tea was set out, and the trays stacked three-high with pastries placed precisely on our table. I tried not to slop tea all over my saucer while we talked about our now shared-love for Edinburgh. J plucked a treat off the tray and, before he’d finished sampling it, exclaimed “tastes like a really good Twinkie!”

Always a surprise, this exploring Edinburgh business.

current jam: ‘natural disaster’ zac brown band

best thing: the mediterranean sea!

Spring Break

My room has finally settled into a state of general disarray that marks a kind of comfort in permanence. I may be a very clean person (brush my teeth twice a day, can hardly stand to leave my own dishes unwashed for more than an hour or so) but this doesn’t prevent me from being messy. It doesn’t help that my wardrobe has only shelves, not drawers. I’m not known for my precision in folding clothes. So my room looks, well, lived in.

I’ve been here eleven weeks. Eleven. It feels like yesterday i was pulling myself up the stairs to my flat for the first time, bleary-eyed and nose still a little sniffly from saying goodbye. And yet the walk to the grocer has become passé, conversations with friends have delved deeper than small talk and into real-person places. Edinburgh is home, now. The two times i’ve left – for Amsterdam and Paris/London – have marked incredible sojourns into new and familiar places. But both times, riding the bus from the airport back into town, i’ve been happy to murmur my “oh, home,” without a second thought to the newness of this place to me.

And it won’t be long before i’m riding that same bus back into town after yet another trip; Spring Break is almost here and my flatmates and i were hankering for some warmer weather. Edinburgh may be cozy and lovely and dapper, but all of its charm doesn’t halt the freezing cold. There’s still snow in the fourteen-day forecast.

In. April.

So tomorrow, we’re jetsetting off for somewhere basked in warmth: the Andalucia region of Spain, and Morocco!

There will be beaches, a camel ride, the Rif Mountains, tapas, couscous, bargaining, and hopefully-hopefully some flamenco dancing. But mostly, there will be sun and lower 70s-temperatures (Fahrenheit, mind you, i don’t have a death wish) and A CAMEL RIDE IN MOROCCO.

I’m stoked. Northern Africa, as a region, has been a place i’ve wanted to visit for so long. And though this will only be a taste of Northern Morocco, it’s still a taste that involves riding a camel along the Moroccan beach. You know, not bad.

I’ve written a few blog posts scheduled to go live whilst away, so be sure to keep your eyes out for more adventures regaled from J’s time in Edinburgh. Until then, bon voyage!

current jam: ‘kiss you’ 1D. no shame.

best thing: packing.

Magical Montmartre.

I thought the magic of Paris was wrapped tight in the Eiffel Tower; intricately woven, measured but unexpected. Then i thought it was a potion concocted by the Seine wrapping itself around the islands in the middle of the city – the candles glowing in Notre-Dame casting a final color-coded spell. I suspected the secret ingredient to Parisian magic was the wine and the food, flavors bursting and lasting.OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

But it was when we strolled through the mountainous alleys of Montmartre that i learned where the real magic of Paris is tucked away. And it’s here, the neighborhood once home to Ernest Hemingway and Vincent van Gogh and Satine. (Okay okay, Satine is fictional. But you can’t talk about Montmartre without the Moulin Rouge!)

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Montmartre is the Paris of absinthe stupor, of romanticized memory. It’s where my mother bought her most treasured keepsake from Paris: an acrylic painting of flowers in a vase. It hung on our dining room wall, the blues singing harmony with the white curtains. She’d told me over and over the place i had to go was Place du Tertre – a cobblestone square where street artists gather, luring tourists into buying caricatures and twenty-minute portraits. My favorite artist stall had done a series of cats sleeping around Paris (so out of character for me, i know) but since J and i had already bought our recreation of van Gogh’s sunflowers i was merely window shopping.

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But Place du Tertre is not the only place in Montmartre where art is to be found; the metropolitan signs themselves are works to behold, adjacent to ivy-colored buildings covered in graffiti.

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The Scottish flag hanging in Paris! Viva la Scotland!

The Scottish flag hanging in Paris! Vive la Scotland!

Hand-in-hand we strolled along the lanes of art on display, covetously sneaking glances at the cafés offering wine under checkered umbrellas.

Just up the hill we could make out the silhouette of Sacre-Coeur white against the blue sky. It was the last church on our list of Parisian places we wanted to see – making it the sixth church we’d see on our trip.

And it turned out to be our favorite.

Sacre-Couer is unlike anywhere else i’ve been; it has the enormity and grandeur of Notre Dame, but the intimacy and quiet contemplation of a smaller church. The windows are dazzling, bathing the whole place in the lux nova that made gothic architecture such a sensation in medieval France. No photography was permitted inside and, while i am sad to have no photos to remember it by, i was glad for the forced contemplative time. It allowed me the full breathing space of presence.

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Awed and quieted by the beautiful building, we meandered back to Place du Tertre for a final glass of wine. Our walk overlooked the whole of the city spread below, the Eiffel Tower stark against the skyline. Paris had enthralled us, the clutter of art and mash of accordion metro musicians just the backdrop to the hum of the city itself.

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“We’ll spend a whole week just in Montmartre when we come back, someday,” J mused. Our last Côte du Rhône of the trip was poised in his hand. In the Scottish wool scarf he’d snagged from my wardrobe, he looked downright European.

I scoffed-laughed, a knot of broke-soon-to-be-grad-student-woes clamping in my stomach. I knew what he meant, though. That Montmartre was the neighborhood you wanted to live in a little- learn the streets by heart, pick a favorite haunt for late-night drinks. I felt the same way.

And i knew that this trip was such a gift. A privilege to have the time and money at all to travel. But a gift to spend such time with J, who hadn’t been able to study abroad. A gift to be in love in the city most famous for romance. A gift to stroll alongside the Seine on a sun-dappled afternoon, with no agenda but being in Paris. I was grateful for all we’d seen – the snafus in getting to Paris, the chance to see my dearest Saran at the Eiffel Tower, the sore feet and the sappy smiles.

Mostly, though, i was simply grateful to share in it all with the dimple-faced man wearing my scarf sitting across from me.

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