For My Mother:

[Groupon UK is running a contest wherein entrants write a blog post about their perfect gift idea – either for themselves, or someone else – this Valentine’s Day. This is my entry!]

I was in the fourth grade when she first left the country. I remember the gifts she brought back – small, plastic figurines of princesses with swords at their hips and knights mounted on horses. It was the peak of my fantastical stories age when i spent hours crafting intricate narratives against the backdrop of my waterfall Playmobile set. Her gifts were the perfect addition to my cast of characters: feisty female leads with dashing love interests played by an assortment of stuffed animals.

My mother has always ensured i live a charmed life. She left the country for the first time in her thirties. I was fourteen when we boarded the plane for Uganda.

Her friend’s book club had booked a trip to Paris and an extra spot was vacant. My mother purchased this exquisite, calf-length black coat for the occasion. The collar was faux fur, and i thought she looked like a movie star from the 1930s. Paris is cold in February, she told me then.

Edinburgh is too.

At the age of twenty, i’ve been given the best gifts i could ever ask for. Love in my life, warms homes, stamped passport, recipes for fried chicken. There’s not much more i could ask for than that. My mother was my gateway into the world, and she has opened innumerable doors since i came through.

When we’d opened our action figures, she told me how the street she’d found them on was like Diagon Alley. Like magic made it appear, cobblestone-covered and impossible to find again. She talked and talked, how the windows in Notre Dame dimmed in the rain but dazzled in the sun. Chirping her Bonjour’s and reminiscing the wine, i drank in her memories like the stories she’d given me bound in books.

It was her first and only time to Paris. We’ve traveled together across East and West Africa, hearts full with adventure and simplicity and constancy. But it’s been some time since my mother has traveled abroad. I can hear little aches in her voice when i tell her how spellbound i am with the red letter-boxes on the streets.

There are many things i wish i could give my mother in return for what she has given me. But a parent’s love is a kind of gift that i, even in my neurotic-must-repay mindset, can never hope to give back in equal measure.

If i could, on Valentine’s Day i would give her is a chance to fall in love with Europe all over again. To visit me, in Edinburgh, and to see why it is that Scotland possess its own kind of magic. I would take her to St. Margaret’s chapel in the Edinburgh castle, because i know she’d like that the oldest building in Edinburgh was built to honor a holy woman. We would eat mussels along the coast and drink in salt air with our wine. She’d tell me about her father and his shrimp boat, and about growing up along an oceanside river. I’d tuck my chin into my folded-up knees and soak in her stories, feeling and looking no different than from when i was ten and she first told me about Paris.

I would show her Edinburgh’s own kind of Diagon Alleys and histories of princesses with swords at the hip. I’d show her to see how her piles of storybooks and memories of Paris have woven in my imagination seeds for endless possibilities, endless adventures.

It’s a gift i wish, so much, that i could give. But in the stead of taking her to the foot of Arthur’s Seat i send pictures. There are long talks on Skype. Some days, when i miss her warmth and her storytelling most acutely, i remember her movie-star black coat and the stories she told, giving a prayer of thanks for the gift of a mother i have been given.


current jam: ‘oh my sweet carolina (live)’ zac brown band.

best thing: moms.

Happy Easter?

I officially received the weirdest, most Dursley-esque gift ever bestowed upon me via the United States mail. From no one other than my own mother.

This story, however, needs a preface; one, you are undoubtedly unsurprised by, having to do with cats. My two cats, Eli and Picasso, are experiencing their first proper North Carolina spring at present, with Picasso’s first birthday this past week and Eli’s sometime in June (we think). As such, they are shedding LIKE CRAZY. Want to wear black? Forget it, you’ll be peppered in orange kitty fur so quickly you might as well be going out for Halloween dressed as a Flintstone. To combat the sheen of tangerine fluff covering every tangible surface of the house, my mom has taken to working a combination of lint rollers, in varying widths, overtime. But instead of using it on her garments (and mine) exclusively, she’s taken it to the source: she’s resorted to lint-rolling the cats. Multiple times a day.

Before you hail out animal cruelty and start waving the PETA banner,* a disclaimer: the cats ADORE this. Eli positively convulses with purring delight at being de-furred in this manner. And even with the roller treatment, they still shed more than hobbits in summertime. If they weren’t the deities whom i worship loves of my life, they’d be positively disgusting.

And, in case you need proof of healthy and purrrfect kitties, here are photos from spring break:

picasso, the lone centurion.

eli, mesmerized by the out-of-frame lint roller. really.

(Really, i’ve just been waiting for an excuse to post these!)

All of this to say, i really miss my cats. When i landed in Raleigh in March at the commencement of my spring holiday, one of the first things my brother said to me was “You really miss the cats more than us, don’t you?” To which i promptly responded, “Well i can hardly talk to the cats on the phone, now can i?” Strictly speaking, this isn’t exactly true. My mom occasionally holds the phone up to the cats while i coo at them from the nor’east. They probably look as baffled as you do, dear reader.

But my mom, who has accommodated all my weirdness since utero, misses the cats when she is away perhaps more acutely than i do.

It is for this reason she sent me the officially weirdest, most Dursley-esque gift, amidst a haul of chocolate and eggs, ever beknownst to mcmizzies anywhere:

Yep. That is exactly what you think it is. A sheet of lint paper with cat hair on it.

I come from a weird place, friends.

Happy Easter/Passover?

current jam: ‘out on the town’ fun.

best thing in my life right now: chocolate reeses easter eggs and mashed potatoes with friends in homes.

*unless, of course, the kind of peeta we’re talking about is the josh hutcherson kind. this provided, wave on comrades. wave on.

Is Not that Strange? (30 DPC: Day 20)

“I do love nothing in the world so well as you; is not that strange?” -William Shakespeare,
Much Ado About Nothing, Act 4 Scene 1

Day 20: a photograph of your most prized possession

Before I begin to delve into the story of today’s photographs (and it is a lovely story, if I may say so myself) I want to take moment to thank you, dear reader. As of two days ago I officially reached over a thousand page views. That is insane– thank you all so very very much for thinking my musings here to be worthy of your time in what surely are your very busy lives! 

Alright, enough freaking out. To the story.

Today’s pictures are of my most treasured gift and possession; my director’s chair. 

As aforementioned in this blog post, in high school I ran a theatre company for two years with some incredibly talented people. My proudest accomplishment with this company (and in theatre in general, really) was directing William Shakespeare’s Much Ado About Nothing. I am quite the Shakespeare geek- have been since I was twelve and in A Comedy of Errors. Directing was something I had always wanted to do and in the fall of my junior year I made this dream a reality. 
It was the biggest project I have ever undertaken and it was essentially my life for three months. But they were some of the best three months of my life- and some of the hardest. Learning what it means to be a good leader meant making huge personal sacrifices in my own life for the sake of the best show possible. I poured everything I had into that show- my time, my tears, my effort, and my creative energy. When we had three sold out shows and, more important to me, a cast incredibly cemented together and with amazing focus, I knew all those months had absolutely paid off. 

The whole cast after giving me the chair! :)
Why is why when, at the curtain call of the final show my cast called me forward to present me with two bouquets of sunflowers and a director’s chair, I stood in front of a sold out theatre crying like a blubbering fool, immensely humbled and awed and so proud.

The whole cast signed the chair, and Justine (who played Margaret) embroidered my name and did the incredible sunflower detail. Sunflowers, my absolute favorite kind of flowers, had littered the stage and set because we’d set the story in an Italian garden. The = is a reference to something I used to use when taking notes during rehearsals/full runs. When a cast member delivered a line a certain way or did something with their character that I really liked I would scribble an equals sign with heart to remind myself to praise their good work during notes. It became something of a badge of honor in the cast. Months later when I sat in on a rehearsal taking notes for another production I doled out a few equals hearts and a member of that show yelped with glee, declaring that to be a “huge compliment!” Really, it was just Lizzie shorthand, but it was so sweet that it kind of caught on.

Covering the arms and legs of the chair (though perhaps fading now) are quotes from the show, lines from our favorite warm-up games, and thank you notes. I love this chair. It is seriously the most thoughtful and kind gift I have ever received. Sitting in it always reminds me that we are all capable and that, while theatre is not as much of a priority in my life anymore, it once was something that dually gave me great joy and made me grow into being a better leader. 

And, because I want to and because I think you’ll have a little kick out of it, here are some of my favorite photographs from the show: 

During the final dress rehearsal the cast played a prank on my by all coming out in each other’s costumes for the final scene. It was HILARIOUS and the fact that they did the whole scene without even so much as a blink in the direction of their outrageous attire told me they were ready for opening night.
Alright, dear reader. Thank you for your kind support and a special thank you to all of you who participated in Day of Silence yesterday!
current jam: “moskau” dschingius khan (it. is. so. catchy.)
best thing in my life right now: WAFFLE CARNIVAL (foryougracie)
days until departure: 46